Gah, I’m sudden afraid that I won’t be smart enough to succeed. I think the reason why I did so well in the past was because I had a vendetta to prove my parents wrong, or in someway win their approval. However, now that what they think hardly seems to matter because it isn’t constantly and daily bombarding me since I moved out of the house, I’m afraid that all my motivation is lost. Someone be my motivation… but perhaps in a more positive way. That would be nice.